"Thank you." I said, for ruining my hope and my life, just because you said you are not intended to.
Well, what else can I do, some people are born with luck, they always get to the top, good things will always be their side and they always got to get away from the bad thing.
But I am not one of them, in fact, sense of insecurities and anger and emotion gushing up and down in me. After so long, after the exact same lessons I learnt for so many times, I still don't know how to break through the feeling of being a loser, being an unlovable and unwanted human being.
Love and compassion came to me naturally and so I fall deeply in love, easily trusting everyone.
Now, it is time to cut of all these element in me, loving, kind, compassion, these are things that tied on my feet and pull me down towards the bottom of the valley, each and every time. They are intended to be good but no longer capable in current selfish society.
I once thought someone will treasure it as I am, someone will see this quality and handle them with care, but every time these are to be taken for granted, these are to be turned into sword that will eventually pierce through my heart.
I am sorry that now, I am full of hatred, vengeance, doubting always.
"I am sorry, I am not intended to, but I really can't."
